Posted at 08:26 PM
Its another year for me. Garsh, i really feel soooo old, and to think that I am already one year younger than the majority of people in my batch. Come to think of it, one actual thing really made me feel old : the UPCAT. Haha How can one entrance exam make a person feel old? It honestly would have that affect if people three batches lower that you are taking it. In a way, it is a bit liberating, but all in all, its just scary - pretty much like walking into a threshold (naks, vocabulary word yun ah!), moving into a sense of dissonance (strike 2 na!), one that leads me to this irresolvable unease (sablay yung ending wahaha). Hay, i feel old pero I'm not that old. Kainis. Pero I'm getting there, hopefully not that fast.
The year that was? In one word: explosive! wahahaha It just seems that everything restrained inside me went all out. Parang bulkang sumabog - naunahan pa ang pagsabog ng bulkang Mayon. wahahaha I could not remember any other year where I was more open to a lot of emotions, feelings and experiences. Normal lang naman ang pagiging roller coaster ng buhay pero eto talaga.. roller coaster in overdrive! Kahit papaano (aka “in a way” natupad din ni God ang wish ko sa kanya nung new year.) Could it be that the "China" inside me has opened up? haha
The year that will be? In the eternal words of Dorina Pineda from Bituing Walang Ningning - " Hindi lang kita tatapatan, lalampasan pa kita." wahahaha pero sa totoo, feel ko wala nang tatapat sa taong nakalipas - masyado lang talaga akong maraming naranasan last year. Pero who knows di ba? Maybe i have not reached my limit... or better yet, maybe I have no limit. Nah. Pero who knows?
Anyway, this time around I am planning to moderate the "explosion" of last year.. haha yung medyo spread out naman evenly instead of relatively short peaks. I also hope decisions of mine do not haunt me. Please lang. And I pray na financially, ok na ako. Medyo stable na ang aking personal funds ngayon - i just hope wala na ring mga surprises.
I wanted to blog about the papers that were returned to me the whole of this week but I procrastinated uptil this point. Ngayon, tinatamad na ako. Eto na lang: History = great. Philosophy = such a disappointment. Marketing = great. Hindi naman sa nagyayabang ako. Wala lang, kahit papaano I am glad that hard work pays off most of the time. (with much emphasis on most of the time.) Now, midterms are coming - a big chunk of the grade. OMG, as in I am soooo scared of midterms this time around, especially the one in theology.
Anyway, I still have to do some papers and still finish reading stuff for theology. I have this feeling that there is no hurry for reading the articles and yet I feel that I am already cramming. Weird? Tell me about it. Plus, we have our Pass Two for Marketing this coming Saturday. First ever planned sleepover ng marketing group this friday! I just hope we get to accomplish what we have to do.
Nga pala, tapos na yung free trial nung counter that displays the flags of all those who visited my site. Kainis! Kung kelan may bumisita na galing Bosnia and Herzegovina! Bakit ngayon pa? Sana merong mabait na magsponsor sa akin nung counter na yun. 12 US Dollars lang naman for one whole year eh... please? hahahaha
Bueno, yo tengo que ir. Adios amigos y amigas. Hasta Luego.
*nagfifeeling na naman ako magspanish. hahaha pagbigyan na lang, yan na lang kasi ang naaalala ko eh.*
Reading: Manuel Tejido - Si Sto. Tomas Aquino at Mga Isyung Panrelihiyon
Hearing: Savage Garden - Affirmation
Feelin'
Well, I still got to do a lot of memorizing for Theology. Good luck.